My new resolution for the New Year~

Last year I missed many chances for my future. It's a pity you know. I want my life to be more colorful. I understand that I have many chances to do it better, so this time I need to make some wishes to make my dream come true. First, I want to find a good job to overcome my family's economic pressure. No matter this year is bad or good, I know I can do it. I must trust myself although this year is during the great depression. Second, I want to surpass my limit, so I will take many exams. This is very important thing to me because I know I have to go through these processes to survive. This society is cruel and I will prepare myself to face the future. Finally, I decide to train my language skills to be a new English teacher in the cram school. However, I don't know what will happen next but I just need courage to complete my resolution. Go ahead...Let's fight it!!!

More than friends...

Sometimes I feel upset because I always think too much. I know some things are not what I think about. When a friend smiles, I might think he or she wants to do a trick to me. I can't regard this as a common emotional expression. It's very obvious that I probably fall in love, or it's all my imagination. I'm not a independant person. In the meanwhile, I also desire someone who needs me. It's a wonderful feeling. I can't explain what the reason is. Perhaps it's an illusion again. If yes, Ok, you got me. This time I don't want to hide my true feeling and I will let you know I'm very serious!

Welcome to 2009~~~Happy New Year

We went to join the party "Countdown Night" and we took KUO-KUANG to Taipei. Unexpectedly, there were many people who also wanted to go to Taipei. Originally, we could take the bus in school but when we arrived the bus stop, people waited for the bus long ago. We had no idea and we didin't want to waste time on waiting for the bus. Therefore, we went to the Hsinchu city to take the bus but there were still a lot of people there. We took the bus by the skin of our teeth. On the super high way, there was a big traffic jam, so it took us 2 more hours to get Taipei. Wheeew.... that was close.
In fact, this firework display of 101 was not good enough and I think last year's show was better than this year. Although I don't like being jam-packed, I still want to be with friends to celebrate the New Year. This is my first time to watch the show and it's also my wonderful memory. The firework is really gorgeous!!!

What can make me happy?

Recently, we finished our performance and we started a lot of activities to celebrate our great success. It's sure that we are all happy because we can be with many friends. We went to the bar to drink some cocktails and this is my first time to go that kind of place. When I went back home, I felt a little lonely. It's really weird. OK, it's time to do my business so that I can be saved from these anxious thoughts by many busy works.

I feel vacant...

A week ago we worked hard to prepare our graduate performance, but now it ends. Why do I feel so lonely? Because of this performance, I see many people's heart clearly and I know who really care about this performance. On the one hand, we did a great job on the performance and we met many new friends. On the other hand, we also wasted much time on speaking complaints. I really don't like to say nonsense. We are smart, so the truth is obvious. After the performance, I know many people feel empty and they even don't know how to do next just like me. Ha...But we don't want to do it again, we have the same great memory. That's enough!

An amazing trip!!!

Today we went to visit ICRT and LIVE ABC. During our way to Taipei we saw the DVD about graduate performance. Actually, I'm an actor of it but I can't imagine how we showed. After watching the DVD, I felt excited deeply. What an excellent play! This performance showed the great view because of the light and I really enjoyed it! When we arrived in the ICRT, we met Eric Tu and Mike Woodward. Mike Woodward is a very nice "big boy." In fact, he is 70 years old! He told us that in Taiwan he is never banned by the government for any kind of news. This is a perfect model about our democracy. And he also talked about women in Taiwan should be respected. I think he has a very logical thinking about many things. No wonder he is a senior DJ for report news. The Live ABC's editor-in-chief is a friend of Robert Lin and he did a great job for introducing many infoamation about our career. I got a deal of harvest about this field trip and I hope next time we can go to more and more relative enterprises for English major.

My new shoes....>"<

When I woke up next day, my new shoes was stolen. I couldn't imagine why that person wanted to steal my shoes. Although it fits me, it's still the man size not the woman. Perhaps that is why my shoes was stolen. But I'm confused why me? There are still many shoes outside the room but I'm the only person who lost her shoes. OK...That is destiny I guess. Oh, God. Please give me a break. I hope that person can return my shoes back even though the possibility is very low. However, the only thing I can do is to buy a new pair of shoes. Money is flying away from me>"<~

Big success~~~graduate performance...

"West Side Story is the best." This is my real feeling now. Although I think it can't be done before, it does succeed! Ha...I don't know how to describe my feeling. Because many roles do their great job, this performance can show our best to the audience completely. I'm glad that many teachers can come to join our performance and they really support us. Thank you all! After the preformance, we took many photos and I think it's the first time I was taken photos by many strangers! It's too many cameras to look at seriously. And the embarrassing situation happened, my coworkers came to see my performance. Unexpectedly, I can't believe they could come because they must be on duty at that time. Should I be happy they could come? I don't want to see them actually!? Even though they gave me flowers, I was not happy at all! Why? It's the simple answer - I don't know them any more. However, the performance finished, so we have to pay attention on our school work now.

How to be a friend...

I think it's a simple question but people usually forget about the word " honesty." Why do they choose to forget the basic elementary of friendship? Some people think if he or she treats ourselves dishonest, why should we treat them honest? There is a big problem - selfish personality. That is to say we always think people do the bad things to ourselves, but they don't consider that they must be a good model first. Although people like me don't think that too much, the only thing we have to realize is to be kind and honest to people and then people aren't a fool to ignore the gentle action. Friendship begins to grow up. Being a good friend is all I need!

Well...

Am I weaker than her? It's unbelievable! I don't want to let anyone judge my performance...I think I can do it better than her. Then why? Am I a boy? No! But I must become a boy, I am good at pretending a fake boy! How can't you see that? Although some people doubt that I'm really a boy, the truth is I don't like to be a sissy! Well, if you ask me why I say that, you can't get a satisfied answer. Because that is a secret, I don't intend to show off. I will make you all regret that I'm the best performer! I can't promise you I'm good at something but I can pretend I'm a man!

Why man?

Man is stronger than woman, and no one can deny it. I just don't want to believe that I can't be the man! Everytime when I saw my friends who can't protect themselves from being hurt by their boyfriends, I was so upset that I can't help them. They usually need a man not a friend. Ha...I feel tired of being a loser and the only thing I can do is to comfort them. Sure, those friends just need a tough guy! I know that! But why they choose men, not friends? I don't want to confess I'm a woman! Men can do and so do I. Don't persuade me I'm just a woman...It just makes me get down right away.

Again...

Don't you be quiet a little? We're all tired of hearing your complaints. Why do you usually interupt our rehearsal and discourage our confidence? Perhaps you have your pride and you're afraid of seeing our fail. The reason is very obvious that you just care about yourself and you don't want us to make you shame. OK, you're the teacher, so we respect you. However, you must know we're individual men, not your toy. We don't earn the money from this performance, so you have no right to treat us so strict. You know...You don't have to!!!Please give us a peaceful space and don't interfere with our performance.

You know just lonely...

My world is full of uncertainty and contradiction. The strange thing is that I don't know why I think too much. Moreover, I think about many odd questions, such as death or paradox so often even though I don't know the answers. That is to say I need someone to solve my questions because I can't do it! How I wish there is somebody who can hear my asking for help. Sometimes I seem to realize these odd thinking. You can laugh at me but there is no doubt I want someone to hear my worry. I can judge it is all about lonely...

I'm totally broken...

You might confuse why I'm broken. Well, it takes me a long time. My body isn't mine and it starts to warn me. What should I do? Can I skip this warning? I must go to see the orthopedist, or I will turn into a very terrible situation! I don't want to let anyone look strange to me, so I try to show how I wish to be the part of this group. Even though my mind doesn't agree with me, I still disobey my true feeling. Because I don't want to be a queer man, I decide to be the hypocritical person. Don't blame me. I just let this situtaion smooth. I know my body that gets worse and worse but what can I do? Huh? It's about a group, not person. However, I'm totally broken. That is what I want to tell you all!!!

Air Force...

Today I went to supermarket to find a new shoes. Fortunately, I found a cheap one although its size is bigger than my feet. I don't care because it's really cheap! OK, you might think I'm an idiot but in my opinion, cheap shoes is good shoes. I don't have much money and my shoes is too old that I think it can be replaced. When I went back home, I started to regret. Ha...stupid, right? However, I don't like this shoes and I still put on it. Next time I will choose the appropriate one.

Happy Birthday~~~

Today is my mom's birthday. I took advantage of the anniversary of SOGO department store and I bought her an underwear. She was very happy that she got a new one then. My mother have few desires, and she usually buy us many things. She totally don't care about herself. I think she works so hard to our family, so we also repay her our appreciation. Therefore, my brother and I decided to buy a practical thing to her. Mother plays the most important role in my life and I will do my best to make her happy. Mommy~~Happy Birthday to you~^^Wish you happy all the time!

Oh...my eyes..>"<

Yesterday I went to KTV with my classmates. They said we could know each other from this meeting. OK. I agreed with them. This is my first time to go to KTV to pay my bill. Because everytime there is someone who can pay the bill for me. Ha...When I saw the total, I was so surprised that singing in the KTV is too expensive. I can't believe my eyes. I deserve it. Because we went to KTV in the midnight about 12 pm., I felt tired. But I think if I go to KTV but I don't sing many songs which wastes time and money, the only thing I can do is to sing a lot of songs. We went back to school about 7 am. Wow. It is really an unforgettable experience. However, it's good to know each other, but my eyes started feeling uncomfortable. I believe next time I won't go to KTV anymore. It's too tired!

It hurts!!!

Today once again, my knees were hurt because I must lift my partner on my shoulder. She is not heavy but I'm very tired. I can't stand it anymore. First time I succeeded in holding her, but we had no rest and continued to do the rehearsal. The terrible thing happened. When the music ended, we had to hold our partner on our shoulder about 5 seconds. Due to her weariness, she didn't jump at my shoulder, so I couldn't catch her. I wanted to prevent her from falling, so my knees fell down to the ground. Ouch!!! My knees were hurt so much! However, I insisted on finishing this dance. Finally, we succeeded it again.

Alcoholic?!

I don't know what I can do. Am I an alcoholic? I like to drink some wine and I haven't drunk before. Actually, I want to try how the feeling is if I'm drunk. I've ever seen a girl who was drunk and she began to cry, shout and swear something. What an awful condition! I don't want to be the one just like her but I just try to test myself how much wine I can drink. Ha...Is it ridiculous? Maybe it's just the excuse I think. Well, that's just a joke. Drinking some wine can make me feel warm a lot in winter. If the temperature is low, I will try to drink something. I'm not an alcoholic

A public servant...No way...

Next year I will take the exam to enter the official department but I also want to do my best in the graduation performance. What should I do? One side is about my future but another one is my short destination. I could be careless in the performance but I can't do the wrong chioce to my classmates. There is no doubt that I choose the performance, so I can't prepare my big exam. What a pity! I hope I can get another chance to make my future bright...